return to love

The greatest achievement is selflessness.  The greatest worth is self-mastery.  The greatest quality is seeking to serve others.  The greatest precept is continual awareness.  The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything.  The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways.  The greatest magic is transmuting the passions.  The greatest generosity is non-attachment.  The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind.  The greatest patience is humility.  The greatest effort is not concerned with results.  The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go.  The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances. Atisha

The greatest achievement is selflessness.
The greatest worth is self-mastery.
The greatest quality is seeking to serve others.
The greatest precept is continual awareness.
The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything.
The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways.
The greatest magic is transmuting the passions.
The greatest generosity is non-attachment.
The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind.
The greatest patience is humility.
The greatest effort is not concerned with results.
The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go.
The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances.
Atisha

it has occurred to me on more than one occasion that it might be a benefit to participate more in the 12 step program that supported my early recovery. since i became a counselor locally, it became uncomfortable sometimes to run into clients at meetings, etc.  not sure if they felt invaded by seeing me outide the clinic setting too. what if they needed to bitch about treatment? it would be restricted. plus my participation needed to be edited often and felt constricted.

also, i just needed a break from talking recovery all day and then more in my off hours.

i have taken a position outside my local community now and so the rules have changed. the chance of interacting directly with a client diminishes greatly and i will not be engaged in direct client care for the entire 8 hours as i have been the last 5 years. i am looking forward to this transition.

the general service rep position is open at my home group at this time. attendance has been dwindling the last year or so. i am not yet sure of my work schedule for the nights of area meetings, but i am available for the sunday am meetings and need to increase my giving and receiving of recovery and spiritual support on a personal level.

last night i worked a party for a woman celebrating 25 years in recovery. there were over 50 sober community members attending, mostly with over 15 years. this is the 4th such event i have encountered this year. it shines a light on just how much larger the recovery community is here and how necessary the support is for all those engaged.

i felt a sense of relief, awe, and some pride with during the event. i cajoled, pampered, and giggled with my contemporaries. i did feel a sense of belonging that i didn’t realize i long for. now that i know i need it, it is almost imperative that i germinate and nurture it as best i can.

God, I offer myself to Thee — to build with me and to do with me as Thou wilt. Relieve me of the bondage of self, that I may better do Thy will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of life. May I do Thy will always!

as any regular reader of mine may know, i am an avid and longtime participant in the house music phenomenon that took the globe by storm in the last 30 years. frankie knuckles and larry levan resurrected the community dance floor mentality and changed the perception of millions of humans through the power of music and remixing, sharing their love for rhythm and sound with our world. a generation or two of us became less fearful of each other and found common ground. the world needs more of this. and so do i.

here’s a little bit of the sound of frankie

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  1. Hey Rod. It’s hard when work and meetings intersect. But going to meetings is a necessary evil, even if you work recovery all of your days, going to a meeting to recharge is good. The listening to others, to maybe get a fresh message or lay some of your burdens down, that’s what a meeting is for. And over long time sobriety, I’ve found that people with time usually slack off and that shows in the long run. Sober people get dry when they stop going and then they get sick and miserable. There is proof in the pudding. If you can make a meeting, go to a meeting. It will remind you what it was like when we got sober in the beginning. Because with time, we tend to forget what it was like to be a newcomer. Happy Holidays. I hope you have a great Christmas.

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