i am not grounded these days. i am in the process of re-ascertaining my bearings. it has felt as if i have been lost at sea for awhile, just pitching to and fro and reacting more that proacting. not at all much fun.
i know that somewhere amidst all this to and fro-ing i have become stronger and re-asserted my abilities to stay buoyant. i do not know what the hidden costs of this reassertion actually is.
i don’t have regrets- about staying or about leaving. i didn’t know it would feel so right and yet so tentative. finding trust in myself can seem so fleeting. maybe i’m not saying that right though because i do trust myself. i just can’t be certain that uncertainty is part of the journey.
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