what an incredible funk this week has been steeping in. i have been in a dark mood, sleepy, unable to rest at night, feeling sketchy, and fantasizing about emotionally overreacting. its weird. it feels like old behavior- familiar. and it feels a little dangerous. whatever is going on, i haven’t really been having fun. i have been weird. i have recoiled a little, and i feel unsure.
today i met with someone with a heavy drinking issue. he had stopped for a few months, but i believe that the holidays and the emotions around that were too much and he drank again. he now finds himself hallucinating, hearing voices, paranoid, lost, fearful, and smelling of raw potatoes. he absolutely refused to go to a detox, but i did take him to an emergency room. it opened my heart quite a bit to spend time with him. i hope it helped him. i know it changed me..